Hi

I thought I'd set my stall out from the very beginning, I don't read many blogs. I have no idea really what most people put in them, why they have them or even why many of them are read by others. Does everyone read everything or are there millions of blogs out there read by no-one and maintained just for the fun of it, like the good old-fashioned personal website. Well my reasons for writing are nothing glamorous really, I like to write and don't get to do it usually, I have troubles and I find writing theraputic, I'm seeking confirmation from the public that I'm actually quite normal and I have an overactive brain that gets on my nerves.

Thought I'd tell a little bit about myself to start with. I'm 22, I'm a new graduate from uni with a first in computer science. I have just got my first job out of uni and am moving away from home to start it. I'm single, though not from choice - you'll see in time! I overthink things and cause myself problems, never more so than in the past year, and I hope that most of my mates would agree I'm generally a nice guy.

Next, a disclaimer:
I know by many people's standards that my problems are trivial, unimportant and probably deeply boring. I don't care, they feel big to me and without experience of much bigger problems I have nothing to compare with. I sympathise deeply with people who have bigger problems, but in my own life, my own problems are what affect me.

Given the time in the morning where I am, I'm not going to start going into my main problems at the moment - just the light worries!

I have to move house in 2 weeks time to a city I have never lived in. I know it quite well, but no-where near as well as home or uni. I have never had a proper job, other than part-time for crap money, and have never worked in an office before. I'm moving to a house with a random in it next week, in a block of flats I'm not sure about - but it's in a nice area at least. Overall I'm finding it all a bit daunting. Everyone says it'll be fine, but I've never paid much attention to what "everyone says", quite often everyone is wrong! I just need to get on the ground and sort myself out and get into it I expect, but it's such a big step - starting real life - and what if I stumble? My past is littered with times I've taken ages to adjust to changes and had problems. I've been on anti-depressants before, and I've failed before and had to give up, it's all made me stronger, and I'm more prepared this time. I have family that lives near me when I move, and a couple of mates around, but day-to-day I'm on my own really. Hmmmm. Why doesn't uni really prepare you for this bit? The living away is fine for cooking and entertainment and things, but starting life is much harder!

Still, at least I'll be able to eat more curries when I leave home.